2009's first,
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Happy New Year! It's good to be back here in front of the PC. This shall be my first blog for this year. Cool eh? 2 more days, and I'll be going back to school. Geese. I wish some things changed. I'm so sick of school. What can I expect for this year? I wish this could be my best year, cause' I know 2008 isn't. Oh, I have lots of things to share, and I'm going to start of with what happened 2 days ago, December 31, 2008. 2008's last day.
Ok, so we had this family gathering as a celebration for 2009's coming, and it was great. I had no pictures though. Anyways, It was really cool I had a special bonding with some of my cousins. It was special cause' it's my first time to bond with them, cause' I'm not a person who loves hanging out with people, and groupies isn't my thing. I mean, I rather call a friend over rather going to a party, well, I love parties, especially when I'm with my Bff, but other her, no way. Moving on, we tried to escape the whole family while they're having fun... cause' they kept on volunteering for us to join games ad stuffs, and we don't like that. Okay so, there's this guy who was with us. And, I can't say he's related to me, he's not my cousin or something like that, but he appear at some of our family gatherings, and it was kinda cool. I gotta see him only once a year, (new year's eve) and I'd rather keep his identity. Haha. Okay so, there. As I said it's kinda cool. (what's with the word cool? It's my new fave. I guess. Geese, weirdo.) Moving on, this guy... we've known each other for like forever. Haha, as I said I got to see him once a year and so. We kept in touch, but of course, because of our distance, we're separated in a way, I mean... we're not that close to each other no more. Unlike before, he was like... he's just too friendly... and we're close with each other. Ugh, Kids. But that night, he was acting cold. Really cold. I dunno, nothing changed in my side, but maybe he's just not used to it or me anymore, well, even me, but at least I tried my best to keep in touch with him by talking to him, I tried, but he won't give me a chance.
Hey, is this blog about him?! He took too many space already. Geese. What's happening to me. Ugh, I'm going crazy. Maybe I just miss our old days. It seems like I'm running after him every time I try to approach him. And I feel dumb. And he's not aware of what he's making me feel. And it's so disappointing. Ugh. I hate this feeling. And this is the part that annoys the most: For the last three months or so, I kept on receiving text messages from him, but since I'm a big slug, I ignored it all. And last NY's eve, he approached me and wondered why he didn't receive any message from me. And I told him I had no load and stuffs, which is partly true. Haha. Then the time came where in they had to go home, and so do I, and so it's time to say our goodbyes. I approached him first. (Ugh!) I mean, I can't count on him to approach me and stuffs. So, I told him I'll just text him, besides, after receiving money from my oh-so-giving relatives, he approached me and told me that, finally I have money for load. So, as soon as I got home, no stores are open, it's like 2 am in the morning, and so, I asked my brother for a little amount of load. Then I sent him 2 messages, and still no reply. I've waited until today, and still no reply. I'm so hooked up right now. He's so vague. F. Anyways, Why should I wait. I'm not that kind of person. Yes. Maybe. Whatever.
I'm soo pissed right now, and my brain's blocked. ~beep. ~beep. ~beep. Ugh, I hate this feeling.
And the thing is.. I think I'm... I think I'm.. ~beep. What's the word again?
Guys. I have something to do. Schoolwork. Yea, schoolwork. Bye. 2009, Good luck.
~E
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